everyday's a new beginning

hey guys, let my start with a golden thought

when your nails are freshly painted and you need to scratch your head without messing them up you can use a pen and literally write something on your head. it will be completely invisible as your hair is covering it up - genius (well not if you're bold)

lets move on

a couple days ago i watched this video by matthew hussey on the new years coming and actually it was one of his most honest and in-manipulative videos and i will explain why in a bit.

so heres the video, you can watch it if you like although its kinda lengthy (i dont think i watched the entire thing, sorry matt)
anyways, the important thing he pointed out is just to stop for a bit, find the time you have nothing on your mind and just stroll through your memories. we tend to forget so fucking much out of our lives, and its good to live in the moment, but here is this one time when you can look at the past spin of our planet and clearly see the direction you're going. remember about the past yet dont let it bring you down, because we're all heading somewhere through the good and the bad.
what i actually did is i made myself a nice bath and went through all of my photos on my phone not only seeing whats on the photo, but trying to remember and feel the situation. after all - i was there duuh. i can recommend that to anyone. especially when, like me, you have the tendency to forget and take for granted all the good stuff happening to you.

now for matthew hussey. hes an epic life winner but also the one who sold his soul to the devil. for starters, hes basically a guy who tells women how to pick up man, how to act while theyre around and maybe some other aspects of life. now about the women part - hes trying to encourage men to watch him, of course that doesnt happen (what kind of man would watch him right) and he knows that, after all - that would be a suicide for him when all the men would start telling him hes wrong. and not saying he is. matthew has a very put together thinking plan and to be honest - it covers up mine surprisingly well. but what he doesnt seem to get is that his information sometimes can be a little straight forward, informative yes but usually not a good learning material. see, the world is extremely flexible and waayy more different than we often imagine it to be. sure he might give you clues and the angle you should look at things (which is crucial btw) but he wont turn coal into a diamond by giving the concrete behavior for concrete situations, thats just dumb.
matthew also sold his soul to the devil. a couple of his videos are basically fakes as the title is not espanded in the video. it contains him "letting us know" that the answers to this topic are on his website and is usually something you have to pay for. whats more he has these seminars, to which thousands of desperate women (sounds like every guys dream right?) come to help their love life and look for the answer to "why an i single?". just a whole misunderstanding, you're single because you  p a i d  and came to this stupid seminar instead of living your life. theres no 'stopping and thinking' point in life and matthew is too smart not to know this. he's just choosing not to share this information.
with every video, he pulls off this show, for example he once while talking about something else "mentioned by accident" that theres some special guest coming to his seminar but hes not sure if he can say their name cause it might be a secret (oh poor and loyal matt), anyways he figured that he might say it now and beep it out if it comes out wrong while editing. so he did beep it out and there wasnt a name there - he said the word "anyone" , someone from the comments realized that. and honestly, theres a lot of this kinda manipulative shit going on which i hate him for doing.
of course im not saying he has never helped any woman (obviously theres a lot he has), but the way he acts as if he was so damn truthful and caring is awful. you need to put an end to this matt, or you will stop at some point in your carrier. people have eyes.

now don't get me wrong, i do watch him and im sure he's a sweet guy, his videos are often inspiring and well made, yet don't always take him too seriously and have some critique.

gosh this one turned into a matthew hussey post haha

THE POINT OF ABOVE IS haha i went through the photos and recided to list out some of the most important stuff that happened this year for me and i'll probably make a post out of it in the near future.

i wanted to take a moment and talk about a book i read recently. i got it from a near friend in september haha and finished reading it this month which is a great achievement cause im the slowest reader ever and the thing thats usually keeps me going is the library deadline ...
anyways, its one of the coolest books ever i think anyone would love it. the title is "The Idle Traveller" and its well written by Dan Kieran and its basically about spontaneous traveling, if you really think about it the traveling implies to living in general. it contains lots of these general truths you have to remember about during your life choices, some amazingly inspiring real life stories and as odd as it sounds, hope. you know, just this kind of hope you get after watching a great movie or tv series, that we still have a great future and don't really know how many fantastic things (like the ones we heard about) are ahead of us.

so what they did in poland, they actually made a 10 or sth series of somehow inspiring books and put it all together in this graphically awesome series





neat right ?

well i'll end this post with some bitter-sweet news, there is a train line building near to the place i live and a path leading through a forest actually turned into this:

majestic though

and then there's some cool wall art. and seriously i was uber surprised to see a message like this written in english somewhere in da hood

thats it for today, enjoy your holidays people ;)

there's a world outside your window

hey human, just a quick note here.
christmas time is here, best fucking option to run away from all this school/work crap and just enjoy some family/friends time, eat the best food in the universe and simply chill. we all need this time fellas. to be completely honest with you, this christmas might be one of the worst in my life, not saying its bad though... just the circumstances made it kinda inconvenient and uninteresting but hey - there are plenty of people who hate christmas and as the exact opposite now i can at least relate somehow, right ?

also the best thing about any holiday is just reminding yourself of the people you care about, everything you're lucky to have and that there is world out there apart from school/work.

what's killing me this year is that i made these crazy effort to make gifts for my friends and now i have nothing for my family haha which is kinda the same every year to be honest, my relatives are the world's worst people to get presents for, and i mean it. all of those YT 'gift guide' videos are crap when people are so independent in their passions or have no passions at all. all you can go for are sweets - that shit is never a miss, everyone loves to eat.
anyways, wanted to share with you what i was working on while not giving a damn about my family :))

the most exciting one first, i saw these in H&M some time ago, a total show-off among the fashionistas, also, ridiculously expensive for what it really is. that's just what i do lately - figure out how stuff are made and doing that my way for nothing.

(shitty photo sorry)
i mean, i had to buy some lace and ribbon obviously

these pair was given to one of my closest friends a couple days ago and honestly seeing my creations come to live is one of the best feelings ever.

then theres this internet cliche

neat, right?
never done some serious water coloring and this one turned out quite cool

and then there's this thing

dry ingredients for chocolate chip cookies, the most awesome idea evuuurrr, what sucks is that i gave this to a person with a sick stomach not being able to eat them for a couple days
+ the last point is "have the best time of your life" - well put

you know ive been to coffee heaven recently and the winter coffies are just fucking awful, i mean damn, how is this even possible, your job is to add a syrup to a coffee people - you literally have one job. shame on you.
well the creme brulee was kinda cool and whats funny is that i took it only for the hell of tasting all the winter ones, actually thought id be the worst one lol the rest was my friends'

just the most instagram/tumblr photo in the world

also what i wanted to tell you about is how proud i am of my city this year, they've done the greatest job if it comes to decorating for christmas. we have this pre xmas fair here at the old town and the lights were off-to-the-space awesome, same thing with just come random trees out on the road, you really did great shit, Gdańsk.

and maybe its a little late but merry christmas everyone
im right after my christmas eve dinner, full of delly food, got some gorgeous presents - feeling spoilt as fuuuuuck, but thats ok, ive been an awful good girl :)

heres some bows i had to make for our shitty ass small christmas tree, apparently all our neighbors were feeling like buying all the big trees, thank you guys

nuf said

we'll have 23 kids and a money tree

hey people ! long time no see



theres a couple things i want to tell you about as there was quite a lot of stuff on my mind. you know whats funny is that when i have no time for thinking it all kind of pops into my head.... that is one of the reasons i decided to write something here, im planning to buy myself a smaller laptop and i guess the ability to write here anywhere in the world will be helpful to make this place happy :)

well its the 3rd month of the school year, i really hate to say that but im seriously feeling like the routine has got me, so remember people, going to the same place for 2 months really makes you a zombie. so what i can say? - i have the ambition to pass this grade with the lowest scores possible in the subjects i have no interest in. thats it, i said it. any knowledge is valuable, im definitely the first person to tell you that but goosh seriously ? polish education system predicts such ridiculous things to be "the foundation of a subject", it really is pointless to learn stuff "by heart" only to pass the subject. of course not includind the point of passing it, which is quite helpful while trying get through the whole education thing... for me it would be just a dream to continue education with a subject 'failed', i mean in poland when you fail a subject you have to repeat a year untill you pass it. i would honestly be damn proud to say that i havent passed the first year of biology, chemistry or just anything i dont feel like learning and that i have NO idea about it. at least that would be the truth, and is it really so painful that you have no ability to go on with learning the interesting stuff ? im not saying im an adult or that im more mature than others to think that, its just what i can see throughout my mates, this aversion and a deepening lack of inspiration and an actual idea of 'what i want to do with my life?'. i think we all feel similar and we're unconsciously losing tons and tons of valuable thoughts and that really worries me ....

All in all ive been trying to figure out a way to earn money, which hasnt come to any results but im feeling im very close, this came of course to some thoughts which im delighted to present.

Well lets start from the fact, that the best way to be rich is to do something you like. In order to get money from that you need to do it very good, which means you have to take some time to perfect it. But first you need to know what you like to do, so you need to find it out. the easier way is to just try new stuff, and you wont manage to do that without being open to stuff.

BEING OPEN > FINDING WHAT YOU LIKE TO DO > BEING THE BEST AT IT > GETTING MONEY FOR IT > BEING RICH !

nice ha ?

The last thing im gonna tell you about today is death :))) well as you may know or not im not really a good christian, id even say im not a christian at all, so at my every step im not even hiding that i want to humiliate the christian society. why ? keine idea, maybe becaouse as far as i can remember ive always HATED everything connected to the church? well anyways the 1st of November has passed and i couldnt help myself not to think about the irony hidden in the ceremony of death (in christian sociely of course). lets start by just saying that when youre a good person, you are going to heaven after death right? the glorious, wonderfull rainbow-filled awesome place where youll spend your eternity after being a nice person in your life. well lets just skip any inaccuracies in thinking and lets just assume everyone who was good in life is loved by their family and the opposite - every bad person has no family love. so now, after a person dies, all the t r u e believers should be filled with joy thinking that their beloved is now going to a place way better than earth and spend eternity there. isnt that just soo god for her/him ? so now explain me this - why are people who define theirselves as christians crying at funerals and being like "omg poor thing" ? its just so unlogical, are they all so selfish they just wanted that person for theirselves and are just unhappy with the fact, that he/she is going to spend fucking forever jumping over rainbows having a better life than them a n d without them ? i think its kind of nearly a sin to be sad after someone dies (well, i dont but its not that unimaginable....) so to all the t r u e christians out there - dont be sad after someone died, he/she is having so much more fun than you are right now !

 
ok id write so much more but its fucking nearly 11 pm and i still have some stuff to do and wake up for school tomoro at 6.30 < 333

anyways, have a great day and night people
byyeee

forgive us for what we have done, we're young

heyy people !
it's been a while, i have to say. a couple months is nearly a lifetime, all this time I've been adding some photos on my instagram and generaly been internet active. my life didn't stop, so here's basically what's been going on here:

so yeah - food, being crazy and my happy face ...
what happened? - I got into my dream school, I passed FCE with an A , got addicted to thrift shopping, started running regularly, staffed my face with sushi almost every week... it's been a  pretty great time while I was gone :)

I just had an amazing yet creative day by my sewing machine, just gone wild today ! there's something coming for this blog and I can't wait to share it with you, my fabulous readers :)

so stay in touch and be ready for something gorgeous :D

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