don't let anybody know that it's hard to live in the city

heyy

just a quick update here, yes I'm still alive and I've been feeling wonderfully for the passed couple days. I just was busy and couldn't find time to do something craftastic, so sorry for that.

today has been absolutely wonderful, I found out my package with like a 10000000000000 studs arrived and I can finally stud every piece of clothing I own :) and the second great part is my inverse ombre hair, I'm naturally blond, so I just had my ends died brown. it's not that dramatic, but it's still something and it makes my hair look a little more 'done' if you know what I mean.

dark ends and studded (already!) top

I had to give my camera back, cuz it was kind of borrowed and so I'll have to find an alternative for tkaking photos and preventing them from looking like this... :D took with my phone LOL

WE HAVE NO WATER IN THE SINKS so I have no idea what I'm gonna wash up with.........

anyways, have a great day, I'll try to post something cool in here as the weekend is coming, take care

buried myself alive

heyy quite a long break


i'll just start off by saying i bought myself the most wonderful thing in the world, a pearl collar

I bought it from a friend, who got it from her mother and honestly, it looks pretty much like it was handmade, I guess it would be nothing to make a thing like this, but oh the prices of pearls these days, it would cost me 10000 times more.

a new trend including putting some embellishments on the shoulders is just spreading all over my school and I love it. although I don't own any spiked sweater, it's just because I haven't found any cheap studs on the net, so I could buy them half free and laugh into people's faces. I found sth really cute, I was inspired by a new collection of Forever21 store, which we don't have in Poland, but since I'm a fan of youtube beauty gurus, I'm pretty aware of what's going on there.

omg, those photos are depressing
have you heard that yesterday was the most depressing day of the whole year according to some science people? it's crazy cuz I found out in the evening and my day was just really sleepy and I was even questioning myself am I sick of feeling like a shit.

I forgot about all the new year's resolutions complitely

 

indeed inspiring

I tried this cool nail art, with matte nails and only shiny french tip and it looked amazing!

lately I'm all into tattoos, I even draw some on myself with a permanent black pen and it looks like real ones.
so of course I had to learn how to write in this cool, gangsta style, usually used on people's fingers.

so this is how a 25 cent plain white tshirt turned into this cool, hipster styled. I cut off the sleeves, head hole and made the bottom long on the back and little shorter on the front, so it's awesooome now, this photo is taken before all the cutting.

and to end amazingly, my fluffy cat feeling great in the warmth of the heater.

cute, ha?

oh Mr. Pitiful, who let you down?

heeyyyyy

I just want to start by telling you I had an amazing cupcake today

really small as you may see with my finger, cute.

so yesterday was a fun day, I went to a New Year's eve theater show and I was just looking so elegant and glam (old lady style) I just  had to take a photo:

what you are seeing here is a warm sweater dress with a fur collar,  it worked perfectly for the red nailz, pearl jewelry and a (quite messy) bun. seriously, I was looking so high class I was laughing to myself in the mirror :D

the show was really nice ,they sang some classic songs from Chicago, songs of Abba, they were men dressed as women on the stage, that one is my favorite.

just my cat, cute as hell :)

So the 2013 has begun and I did some steps to make this year positive, reckless and productive. I made a jar which says "joys of 2013" to put al the great memories in there on pieces of paper folded into stars, once this year will be over, I'll unfold everything and know how big this year was to me.

and btw I ordered a REAL glow-in-the-dark paint, it should arrive this week :)

other thing, I saw it on pinterest a couple of days ago, a notebook to write all the things to be grateful for this year:

I haven't written anything in there lolz

OMG yesterday I saw the most wonderful, chillaxing, inspiring and positive movie ever. The History Boys, it's boring to see with your friends to have fun, it's perfect for tired evening with a cup of tea. just fell in love with it, just amazing how those strict, gentelmanly times can make you want to live in those times.

the whole movie was just filled with thoughtful,smart quotes and gave a lot to think about, you could obviously see that the scenario was really polished, what made the dialogs smooth and smart. sometimes I had to pause the movie to understand what they are talking about. also it was full of poetry and oldschool songs.

in one word, a very very very valuable movie :)

I forgot to mention it was manly about being gay :)

that's it for today, byeeeee

today my life begins

heyyyyyyyyyy

as the 2013 came along it's time for New Year's resolutions!!!

I just would like to tell you, I'm really focusing on the psychical side of me this year, also more on the everyday life than a one time experience, so the changes will be bigger. the whole 'sitting home all christmas' got me really thinking of the way I live, you know how loneliness messes up your brain.

oh god here we go:

1. Meet people

it's weird, but lately I don't really have an opportunity to meet anyone, seriously I don't remember meeting anyone new since last summer, it's just disturbing. maybe I should sign myself for some cool afterschool activities? actually I'm going to a new school next year so whatevs

2. Write a book

 when I see people making millions on books they wrote in their young years and then publishing it I think it could be a fun thing to do as a backup, also a great challenge, making up all of that shit.

3. Find a school I will fit in

 well, at first I was 100% sure I'm gonna go to an art school, which is just super cool, but now I'm having second thoughts, I really don't wanna land in a school full of teenage girls, which are just HELL and I feel like I'm going to loose interest to the art stuff once it becomes my duty. I was thinking of going to math-physics, as I love it, but I can't find a school I can find what I want, we will see :)

4. Earn money somehow

some time ago I sold things I made from clay, in the summer I was thinking of opening another blog, only to show stuff for sale, fut the school started and things started to slip away as I had so little time for myself. still interested in the project, maybe I'll figure it out.

5. Don't get leagues seriously

it is referring to school mostly, you know, there's like a assumption that everyone that's having a lot of make up is a hard bitch or that every men dressing nice is a fag, it really creates this wall between people. I'm really hoping to open up, especially for when I'm gonna meet ton of people next year. 

6. Look good
you know, not only I want to have a cool outfit and make up everyday, but also I want to have a healthy looking skin, develop some muscles or sth, painting my nails and having cool accessories.

7. Arrange the time better

the school year was just a mess, I'll try to do everything before I take care of myself, have a calendar for all the school and social stuff, try to work with it.

8. Try to be happy with my life

I often see a movie or hear about other people's life and I just cry on the evenings why my life isn't that cool, I just need to understand that I have some time in life, I'm still young and can do anything I want. it's crucial to focus on having fun now, and then the future comes great naturally.

9. Sew more

since I sown my first dress, I really liked it and it's not really so common in any area I heard of to sell stuff you made or show your projects somewhere, so this might be a way of starting something. btw I finished my second dress few months ago, my friend wants to buy it, which I'm not sure if I should do, so all it needs is a zipper on the back as it has to be adjusted to the body then. 

10. Have a great summer

 my last summer wasn't really spectacular, it was usual,but I want to do something different this year, plan something.

11. Have perfect teeth
well, in a year from now I will have my braces taken off, I'm hoping to withen my teeth somehow.

12. Learn to play any instrument
pretty clear

13. Stand out

I don't want to have huge purple hair or something, I'm thinking more of a way of living, I want to inspire people and don't be another teenage dirtbag and a clone of everyone.

14. Learn how to cook
my sister is probably leaving for studies next year and she was the one who always took care of food, my mom never cooks, so I'll be responsible for my meals. it's funny that I'm 15 and have no idea how to cook.

15. Don't blame myself

 it's just something I realized I have the tendency to do. maybe you can't see it but really often I came ou of the fight thinking I was the one who did wrong, although my brain tells me the opposite. 

16. Get more sleep

this point just HAD TO get on this list, I don't remember a single day I woke up do school all full of energy, I'm having 6-7 (if not less) hours of sleep everyday and it's eating me up, I can't live like that anymore.

17. Talk more
it's actually connected with the above point, I just don;t have the energy to say something I just think about it and then I figure out I might have actually help the conversation. 

18. Keep psychical distance
it might be weird, but I have this thing that I over-engage into usual stuff. for example after I leave a bus I can perfectly tell which person sat where and tell what have I thought about them, just basic over analyzing, I have to focus on the more important stuff.

20. Think less
just think less, do more

21. Be aware of the world
I'm the person which never knows the basic stuff that's happening in coultries. like war and stuff, opening some huge events, I guess I'd have to watch the news more usual.

22. Music up!

not gonna explain that one

23. Look on the bright side of life

 pretty obvious :)

 nothing special this year, really hope to keep some of those.

if any new resolution pops to my mind I'll just edit this post and write it down, I just want it to be on the site on time, it's still 1 day late.

I thought quite a lot about them throughout the passed couple of months, I'll have to make some kind of a poster with them to keep them in mind everyday.....

sooo tired of this post, I slept 3 hours today, byeeeeeeeeeeeee